Seems like I tend to zone out for a few months when I transition. As always I have a perfectly good reason. I got busy and guess what it's September, yet AGAIN!! Now I don't need to remind you what this means, do I? I am sure my PRITE post from last September can help. Yes it's here again. I am clearly in panic as this year so far I haven't had any chance to study at all. Serves me right. I mean what was I thinking procrastinating until July and hoping that being a PGY-4 will somehow make me invincible and give me unlimited amount of time to study right from July. Being a PGY-4 is challenging and so far mostly a constant whirlwind. Running from one place to another and not having an office anymore basically is the life right now. It's busy and at times quite draining when it leaves no time to actually sit down and study or read. I do have a light at the end of this tunnel in about two months when I can start my elective months and have more flexibility in my schedule but until then it's the hamster wheel, only much more bigger and my feet get stuck almost every day.
This is my last transition while in residency and change is always hard. Being in my own office for a whole year was something I got used to and used to look forward to. It was a feeling of being at a home base which is gone now and in so many ways may be is appropriate because I need to move on in about 9 more months so I can't get too comfortable. May be that is the natural course of things. I will probably feel much better as I get to the month of starting my electives and take a breather.
I have looked over my posts from last few years ever since I started writing here and see that every transition brings feelings of being overwhelmed, annoyed and at times pure frustration but it also helped me see that eventually I start feeling like I have grip on things finally. I am hoping it will happen soon. In the mean while I have to study for my in service exam so I can move on to bigger and better things like studying for the boards, which sounds oh so pleasant, NOT!!
I would like to come up here and write some about a few great books I have read over the last 2 months of absence but I need to be in a zen mind set to review these books. I think my zen will come after my in service which is in time with the end of my child rotation which starts in 2 days.
I will peek back in next month to see if I can produce something worth reading but for those of you who read this blog (and it amazes me that so many people read this from all over the world) I will say this much; first rule of being a psychiatrist, be in touch with your inner self and take care of yourself before anything else, (at least for me). So my absence here is not out of a memory lapse but only out of the survival mode I am right now.
Until the storm calms down a little, hang in there with me because the other side is kicking my behind so to speak and it is going to take a while to start thinking more clearly.
This is my last transition while in residency and change is always hard. Being in my own office for a whole year was something I got used to and used to look forward to. It was a feeling of being at a home base which is gone now and in so many ways may be is appropriate because I need to move on in about 9 more months so I can't get too comfortable. May be that is the natural course of things. I will probably feel much better as I get to the month of starting my electives and take a breather.
I have looked over my posts from last few years ever since I started writing here and see that every transition brings feelings of being overwhelmed, annoyed and at times pure frustration but it also helped me see that eventually I start feeling like I have grip on things finally. I am hoping it will happen soon. In the mean while I have to study for my in service exam so I can move on to bigger and better things like studying for the boards, which sounds oh so pleasant, NOT!!
I would like to come up here and write some about a few great books I have read over the last 2 months of absence but I need to be in a zen mind set to review these books. I think my zen will come after my in service which is in time with the end of my child rotation which starts in 2 days.
I will peek back in next month to see if I can produce something worth reading but for those of you who read this blog (and it amazes me that so many people read this from all over the world) I will say this much; first rule of being a psychiatrist, be in touch with your inner self and take care of yourself before anything else, (at least for me). So my absence here is not out of a memory lapse but only out of the survival mode I am right now.
Until the storm calms down a little, hang in there with me because the other side is kicking my behind so to speak and it is going to take a while to start thinking more clearly.
